Promises

I bought these daffodils and hyacinths 2 years ago.  They are coming up under my stairs.  This is the last year that I will see them...I like what they stand for, spring and the ever turning passage of time. 

I didn't mean for this post to seem sad, its just that turning time and constant change is a little sad.

They also remind me of one of my favorite poems as a child.  We had a book of Mother Goose which I often chose for my story before bed.  

(Really beautiful illustration)

"Daffy-Down-Dilly has come up to town,
In a yellow petticoat and a green gown."

Mother Goose

Thanks mom and dad for reading to me and giving me good memories.  They make me brave enough to continue to move forward in life...and to enjoy the memories that I leave behind.  

Won't Turn Back

Today is 1 month from my Board's test exactly.  Also 2 months till we move to Nebraska.  If I stop and think about it all, its so overwhelming.  In the next year I have to move 4 times, find a job that pays enough to take care of my student loans, maybe buy a house, maybe start thinking seriously about kids...Its so much to think about, so many details to plan.

One thing I have learned since moving here is that if I don't take the time to enjoy individual days, hours, moments...if I'm just always looking ahead to the future and planning my perfect plan...I miss now.

So, here's a few snapshots from the past couple of weeks.  They've had their ups and downs.  Some extremely stressful minutes/days...but they always seem better looking back. 

Valentine's Dinner: Steak, asparagus, tomatoes

Sweet Valentine's presents: milk foamer (for my coffee) and muffin top maker plus baby yellow roses and a sweet card

Eyeball: Expensive fun, silly photo booth, dancing

Everybody wants their life to be beautiful.  But everybody's life is hard.  School is hard, work is hard, marriage is hard...but its worth it.  

______________________________

So tell me why I should run for cover

At the sound of the coming thunder

All I hear is the cry of my lover

So take your shot

I won't turn back

I won't turn back

Faithful like a soldier

Who's answered to the call

Even when his back's against the wall

So tell me why I should run for cover

At the sound of the coming thunder

All I hear is the cry of my lover

Yeah take your shot

I won't turn back

Rock Climbing

As is obvious, I have not posted in quite a while.  After Christmas, life picked up its normal American fast pace as we visited family in Arkansas then rushed home so that I could go to a week long review for the boards test I will take in March, then start back to school the next Monday.  The test in March is one of the last giant hurdles on my way to becoming a doctor.  When I first moved to Bloomington and was about to begin optometry school, I thought of my life  like a roller coaster.  I had no idea what was around the bend, or when the bottom might just completely drop out from under me.  Now, as I am nearing the end of school, the scariness of the roller coaster has now been replaced with the feeling that I am attempting to scale a giant rock cliff.  Everytime I get to a new level area and rest a moment, I look up and see that there is so much more to go, but I can also look down and see the amazing heights that I am reaching.  I've learned a lot.  People (family) actually call me now and I feel that I can confidently talk to them about their eye problems.  But, this boards test in March feels like one of those parts of the cliff where the 90 degree face actually turns back and you're almost hanging upside down.  You have to pull yourself up and over the hump.  Its scary looking at what is to come, but at the same time, its getting exhilerating.  As long as I don't let go and end up plastered to the ground far below...I'm almost to the top.  Of course, once I get up there, only then will I know where the rest of my life will lead.  I assume from experience that I probably won't just be skipping through fields of daisies.  There will probably be a couple more roller coasters or rock cliffs that have to be conquered.  I'm just glad I'm getting close to the top of this one.